a match and a candle
2 insignificant things
but when put together
the light of the flame lights up the entire room
with a burning passion
Friday, September 30, 2005
2 insignificant things
but when put together
the light of the flame lights up the entire room
with a burning passion
i love myself(:
Monday, September 26, 2005
got back prelims results
fucked up everything.the closest i got to a pass was for math paper 2 but that still flunked.
the most painful thing is when u actually did study like fuck for it and wrote alot and u get so low.it's just painful.
but i guess the worst part is actually telling ur family ur marks.yes they want you to do well yes they want you to pass.they pressure u which is a good thing.u need the pressure anot u wont perform.but the thing is that now i got the pressure alot of it but i dont have the steps to doing well.i need to know the steps.i'm doing everything i could possibly do wrongly.i need the correction.would you correct me?would u teach me?i know you could but would u?
u said ask u.i am asking u but u get fedup.you dont know how tough it is.seriously.
the fan is like blowing my hair into my eyes la.i got like a few minutes to type thiscause im doing math n i did the questions im supposed to do n now is supposedly 'dinner time'.
on a totally different subject..
if u dont try one more time,u wont know the outcome.
it may be good or it may be bad.
it's a gamble.
wanna play?
i promised you forever
i dont know about forever,but i know about now
i'm still sticking to my promise
it has not changed since..
where are you?
i dont see you.
where are you?
i dont hear you.
where are you?
i cant smell you.
where are you?
where are you?
are you gone?
"i was not prepared enough"- mymp
i love you people =)
i love myself(:
Sunday, September 25, 2005
this weekend has been by far one of which i would never want to trade.i'm just so happy.
"and all the love i have is especially for you".i'm high on something..i dont know what =)
oh..i look pregnant..seriously..maybe 2-3 months when it still looks like flab..maybe cause it is flab
i'm so happy!
thank you for such a wonderful weekend
i love you
i love myself(:
Thursday, September 22, 2005
never confuse someone when they are already confused.it just causes a stir.and when u want to clear things up and straighten out a few bumps you have,they think u want more and u expect more.why not now?when u know what is best?it will be much better.it has no where else to go.why not?just.they cant do anything except with their words.listen to them and u go no where.prove them wrong and u prove to everyone u're not like them.but its not their choice,it's your choice.just..
i love myself(:
Sunday, September 18, 2005
it's 9..i'm sad
but i went to church today!had fun..havent seen those kids in a long time.
i miss bianca so much!
i can't wait for my phone to ring
hoping it'll be you calling
when i see it's someone else
my heart hurts
but when i see it's you
my heart skips a beat
it's just good to hear your voice again
i can't wait for my phone to ring
it's not ringing
i love myself(:
poor darlings..both having cramps
i love myself(:
Saturday, September 17, 2005
the ocean can be so beautiful with clear waters abling you to see the beautiful reef and the sea creatures,it can be so beautiful with the glistening of the setting sun hitting the waters surface.
the ocean can be dark.u cant see what is waiting below.
much like life.
i love myself(:
lets just say its 2pm on this very nice saturday afternoon.
and in 153 hours time,il have the one thing i miss the most hopefully by myside.its the things in life that u know will always be there that u take advantage of and when they're gone for awhile, u realize then how much they really mean to u and how special they are and finally realise that you can't do without them.you just can't.
i love myself(:
why did you leave me alone?
all alone in this world
this strange world
this world is filled with many strange things and many of which i do not understand
why did u leave me alone?
why did u leave me all alone?
"and i love u i swear thats true i cannot live without you" james blunt; goodbye my lover
i love myself(:
Friday, September 16, 2005
i still remember the day that photo was taken.was getting ready to go out with aida n za.looked so damn slack next to them.i couldnt be bothered.but i miss my hair.it was long,ok not that long but much longer than it is now okay..
had so much fun at zas place just now ith aida n phyll.okay.officially,phyll is mad!haha no la i love her la she's so cute and nonsense.haha.
it defeats the purpose of us talking.especially everyday.and i pray for the day that u will see,see what i hope u'l see.but i know that day will never come and what i hope for will never happen.so i should just give up.but..
today was fun on 31,we were talking about all these kinda things..haha.and how the opposite sex just would not understand and all.watched herbie at zas place.lovelove!
i love myself(:
Thursday, September 15, 2005
tan tock seng has officially become my new home.haha.they took blood again=( i dont like the needle but i love to see the blood flowing out.it's just my abnormality i guess.
like i was telling za,ur mind tells u one thing,ur heart tells u another-the complete opposite.girls have no heart to end things but guys do.they have no form of remourse.they get over you by going out with someone new.while we girls are stuck here with u on our minds.guys never really see how much their girl loves them and how deeply do.
she really should go find somebody who appreaciates all the love she gives.
but its hard to find a someone new cause ur still thinking about the previous one.
there are just some people you come across in life,who make a great impact and leave such a mark in you that u are not the same again and u continue on with life with that person in you,although the person is not literally there.do you undersatnd what i am saying?
i love myself(:
Monday, September 12, 2005
you know what? you're the first on my mind each and everytime
it's scary but true.you're not supposed to even be on my mind but you are.you always find a way to get back in that place without you even knowing.all it needs is just one glance at a specific place and there you are fresh in my mind once again.
i dont really care what people say i dont watch what them want do but still i got to stick to my girls like glue and i dont know the rest of the words.we'd be buring something something until it cathes fire and then we call the civil defence to come and put out the fire.haha.nicole paul!
im so happy that we became like before once again but it feels like i'm losing u all over again.why cant we just be like before-hey it rhymes!
you lied,you cheated,you stole.
all that u did.
seriously ah if u are trying to interpret what i'm trying to say don't cause i myself don't know.it's a mixture of alot of things just compilled together.
sometimes i wish that u just won't speak.just talk to me without words.it had been a long time since that has happened.to tell you the truth, i don't know you , i don't know who you are, i don't know what you are,bluntly put- i don't know you.
to talk to you i have to go through so many people-the people in my head.they tell me different things.i don't know who or which obe to listen to.sometimes they agree and are happy,and sometimes they don't agree and they fight over it causing a massive collapse-that's when everything goes blank and i don't know,i just don't.
so now you decide for me.
i love myself(:
Saturday, September 10, 2005
its funny!
i never know what i have until i dont have it anymore
it feels like i just got alex back and now i lost him again..but this time to the government =(
yesterday was so sad.but i had so much fun,but it was so stressful and bloody hot.but fantasy la all the army men all around you.
altogher it was very good.the camp is too nice for all these boys.it's all new and their bunks are soo nice!
i dont mind going there but not for the traning,i'l just die
alex msged me just now n i called him i was so happy i still am.i miss him like mad.i hope he's fine and all
i cant wait for the 23rd of september!!!!!!!!
i love myself(:
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
hello!
aida and i had a super fun day today..we went out..bought bag and shoes..im so happy!whhhhhhheeeeeee
thank you.
thank you for everything.
the bad and the good.
thank you for the lessons learnt.
thank you for the teaching.
thank you for showing me things,
things i was not able to see before.
thank you.
i love myself(:
Monday, September 05, 2005
good afternoon to all u idots out there
i miss all my friends.hmm.the ones i call friends are the ones who i mean friends.i dont know what im blabbering about.haha!ok ive just stumbled across the wonders of uploading pictures here so u dont just have to stare at one damn picture.haha!woooot!its a suicide suicide
you are stinking fools
believeing everything you hear
everything people tell you
why dont you go and find out your information instaed of living of the ideas and thought of others?
you are all pathetic!
haha.i dont know just wanted to type that.i sound angry.but im actually happy.haha!im mad..no la just a tad bit crazy
i miss aida im going out with her tmr i htink..hmm..going nout now with mummy and my sister..that means i gotta shower..damn!hahaha.k gonna go shower now..mwah!
i love myself(:
Sunday, September 04, 2005
::listen to ur heart before you tell him goodbye::
goodmorning people!
yesterday was miss wahidahs wedding..she was so pretty!i wanted to cry.i dont want her to get married..she's ours!me aida and za went together.i met them at the busstop.we had fun although we were so darn hot.then we helped out.the class came and we took pictures and all.it rained abit.but we were all in the tents!=)poor za she had stomach pain and she left at around 7.poor girl la.she really wanted to stay for dinner and all.oh man talking about dinner,,!!!! mdm shanti was there,mrs kee,mrs ong,mrs sng,om,and like every teacher!but i didnt see cikgu raudah,cikgu rathia or miss zakiah.haha!
aidas feet and my feet were like so sore la!we left at like 9+.no more serving drinks for us.haha.aida kena called cik kak and adik all in the same sentence!it was funny.i was callled sis.haha!damn funny la you should have been there.our class is good.everyone excpet 6 people went for the wedding.
i love miss wahidah!
i love myself(:
Friday, September 02, 2005
hello people!
yes paul is up and out of bed.not really up but up slowly.i aint running around just yet.not screaming yet.well..i cant wait for miss wahidahs wedding tmr!so cute la like our mummy getting married.she's seen us grow and we've seen her grow and now some dude's gnna be in the picture of her n her class.haha!i sound possessive.
i haven't gotten her a gift yet.im thinking of popping by tampines later.hopefully it doesnt rain tmr.oh guess what?!me n mummy went to buy baju!my baju is nice ok.haha.ok gotta go makan now.love
i love myself(: