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Thursday, December 30, 2004

hello.well.its been a long time.

christmas was fun!thank u to all who came.yes i was in a black dress on christmas.walking downstairs with slippers what.

nurhana,sahirah,aida,hana,mona,alex,shairul,faisal..thank u my darlings.it wouldnt have been the same without u'll.

i really have been having fun during the holidays.now what do i do in the middle of the night?go down,sit at the table and write.like one liners and stuff.it's nice.i love it.hmm..its coming to period time again.i hate it.oh damn.standing by with the pads.haha!

school is starting..

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Friday, December 24, 2004

you need to be very comfortable with someone and just have silence without it feeling awkward.

merry christmas EVE to everyone.im in such a happy spirit.but,im down with the flu.how spectacular!

janee-i miss you.we still gotta go out know.
cliffy-you have a good christmas too ya.see you soon.
natasha-why u sitting down on the floor next to me and asking if im blogging.sayang oh sayang.i want my pillow back!!haha.i love you
hana & b-happy moving house!im missing you.your attendance is required
aida-bo.why u sent me 5 of the same msgs this morning?
za & farhan-happy kl-ing!i miss you.love u
kim & sum 41-when can i see ur new place?merry christmas!love u n miss u
gid-i miss ur turgid nipples!merry christmas.love n miss u
faridah & sahirah-where ul at?i miss u!

kk.kakak shasha wants to blog for me.5..6..7..8
NATASHA SPEAKS>> Hello everyone! Nicole claims no one reads her blog but I beg to differ. No one reads MY goddamn blog! Anyways, Christmas is here again this year round and I'm
going to share with you, dear readers, what I think about Christmas. I think it's comercial, capitalist bullshit and it's making me sick to the core. So shut the hell up with your stupid ho ho hos and piss off. Merry Christmas!

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Thursday, December 23, 2004

mixed emotions.
if you change someone or try to change someone,u do not love them.because u cannot accept them for who they are.if you change for someone,that is being blunty stupid.beacuse if that person loved you,they would accept you and your flaws.

me and nat had a heart to heart just now and i had to totally spoil the moment by accidently dropping her phone.the story is that i took a picture,and was laying her phone down on the table.then it just slipped out and fell on the table.i'm such a "moment spoiler"

was so nice just now.had a reunion!za and farhan,hana n b,aida.alex could not make it cause he didnt want to travel down to town.faisal is at tekong.we had fun.talking bout school and how we used to wash toilets and stuff.we did the stupidest most jackass things.school life will never be the same again.no matter how much i want it to stay the same,it can never be.i promise we will not loose what we have,we can never.ok?being in different schools will have its toll on us but we have to work together,as a group.

we are like a bouquet of flowers.
wilting,dried,beautiful,thorns.
thats the beauty of friendship.
nothing is perfect.
we are who we are
and we accept each other.
i love you papples so much

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

i am awake!actually,i got up half an hour ago,decided to come online to visit all the blogs and to take a crap.its like 2 more days to christmas eve.ive got my heels and my bag.im oh so happy.i think ive got all the presents.except for alexs,faisals and bs.have no clue what they want.it's kinda hard cause it's not like i can just buy them flowers.i honestly believe that it's super easy to get a gift for a girl,because no matter how ugly and awful it is,she will appreaciate it.the range is wide!from flowers to earrings,from candy to jewellry.you get the picture.

oh!the bloddy stressful results period(one day before and the actualy day itself)really has taken its toll on me.ive got bloody pimples.a freaking breakout.my hands were shaking like nobody's business.and..if that is'nt bad enough,i scratch my eyelid as in it's swollen and it hurts.the story behind it is fucking funny and dumb.

im decided,im gonna try-not to burp today.it's gonna be hard cause it just comes out.gonna control.hm.

i saw this flower,growing from the ground.
it looks so beautiful,standing tall in the middle of nowhere.
i pluck it.
seperating it from its roots-its lifesource.
i bring it home.
i take care of it:i water it,i fertilize it
will it grow?or will it die on me?
will its beauty stay?or will it wilt away?
the answers to the questions cant be for-told
we just got to put ourselves out and try.
are we willing to?

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

its been like what?a week.

hm.alot of things happened.shall not go into detail,shall not even go into it at all.cause i wanna talk about justnow.

met aida and went shopping for like 30mins?spent like 70bucks?hm.i really knew what i wanted.made our way down to paya lebar.met our special guest-alex!.met hana,b and faisal.had alot of fun.got all wet.talking bout sex.wanting to have sex in the handicap toilet right there and then.but then they all talk only.i willing know.hmph.

the ride home was rubbish.got home,feeling all"im not inlove.its just a face that im going thru"or is it "phase"?and feeling"i drive myself insane wishing i could touch your face..but the truth remains you're gone".the saying out of sight out of heart really works for us.cause when u're there-i want you.when u're gone-i dont give a flying fuck.

it's just fucking confusing.but on the other side,it was fucking good to have seen u again after so long-2weeks.i really hope you can make it for christmas though.
i miss alex so much.he is the only and i say ONLY guy that i've ever known who is really not a prick,dickhead,egoistic loser.he really is the genuine thing.and i love him so much for that.we are like so fucking close.even if we dont see each other for a damn long time-i understand,he's got work and shit.oh god.i love him.he is the only guy that is good enough to be considered our girlfren.

can't wait to go out tmr.wonder what i'l wear.hmm.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

it's my birthday!
happy birthday to me.
well few more minutes to enjoy being the birthday girl.
thank you to all my lovely darlings and babies who wished me and who spent time with me today.i love you all!

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Monday, December 13, 2004

thanks arbangs!
gosh i had so much fun!
dance class was superb.at first i had no idea,it looked so "woah".then do and do and do till we got it.had absolute fun with "rock ur body".woo.hana,we've got to put our new skills to the test.woopsie!!
went to raimahs to eat.ate pattaya fried rice nat ate mushroom fired rice.then we were talking bout arbs and the lesson.then guess who comes coming down?argbs!panjang umur pendek nafas.woopsie.then he makaned fried rice "ayam-bilis"-right arbs?haha.
arbs sent us home.then me n nat walked down to caltex bought ice cream.

now i can hear moaning n groaning.-watching pulp fiction.but im upstairs.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Sunday, December 12, 2004

im OH SO HAPPY*as in hanas words*

im glad the ffc is in full swing once again.we macam bestfriends la all of us-including aida*wink2*
as usual,i could'nt get up for church,wait a minute-i did'nt even set the alarm=major woopsie!.was'nt planning on going anyway.

im really happy.thank u stooperstars for my surprise party.i really enjoyed it.i want it to last forever.we were all just ebing ourselves.nothing to hide-thats the way it should always be.well,i think i had a tad too much fun.don't you think?oh well.its my party and i can do whatever i want to.

a few times alex was playing sad songs.i wonder why.then he was like"hey this is a birthday party know".like we know lexy boy!and thanks for almost throwing me into the sea and dragging me around.at least we spent time together,i haven seen ur handsome face in a long long time.

aida lost so much weight-feeling skinny.if she looses anymore,she will be skinnier than me!thanks gibs for entertaining everyone.it was good.hana had the most fun i think.*smiles*

hm.was'nt missing anyone though.of cos i was missing the ones who said they couldnt turn up.but for the rest-who are you?

when u asked me to make a wish,i really had nothing to wish for.that's because all the things and people i love were there with me.what else could i want?oh and alex,thanks for asking me to wish for bigger boobs-so u can stare at?haha.

i love you all!i love hana,shairul,faisal,aida,gid,faridah,sahirah,clara,mirdat,meli,becky,maniq,kim,shaun,debbie,alec,daphne and alex!!!!!!!!!!*if i forgot anyone-im so sorry*

so.what was i doing today?i did faisals favor,then me n mummy cleared up downstairs.we did the store room,carried oh-so-heavy-boxes,dust everywhere,and i sewed curtains.hm*im proud of myself*

i cant stop smiling.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

thank you to all those who came today.it means alot to me.
thank you to those who told me they couldnt come.
and to all those who didnt come-fuck u.

i had so much fun today.thank you papples.it was a small group.i liked the company and the atmosphere.it was so chill.my type.we all talked n talked.and thank you to all my darlings who gave me presents!thank u to meli for the cake.

when it got dark,we were all in darkness.haha.using hp lights what.i had so much fun.thanks alex and faisal!gonna miss u 2 alot alot + many many!

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Friday, December 10, 2004

where are u christmas?

why cant i find you
why have u gone away
where is laughter you used to bring me
why cant i hear music play
my world is changing and rearranging
does that mean christmas changes too?

where are u christmas?
do u remember the one you used to know?
im not the same one see what the times done
is that you have let me go?

christmas is here everywhere!!!
christmas is here if u care!!!!
if there is love in ur heart n ur mind
u will feel like christmas all the time

i feel u christmas i know ive found u
u never fade away
the joy of christmas stays here inside us
fills in each and every heart with love

I LOVE THAT SONG!
hm.met hana n gid at bedok.i was late.sorry papples!was so happy to see them!went to the beach.hmph*rolls eyes*.then went to town.saw za.saw manross,aloy all.then dylan came to meet us.later syaza.hm.had fun snapping pictures.especially on the bus right?!!haha.i looked disgusting la.hm.then walkwalk then went home.took train.*smilesssss*

today met dylan and becky.watched movie*smilees*

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Thursday, December 09, 2004

jianing is back!oh my gid.my lil turgid nipples!im so happy!i haven seen u in ages.come to think about it since june actually.i love u like mad.

i still haven seen aida.but aida is filled in with everything.

today im hurt.

im not going to be specific.hm.

i dont understand u.

help me understand.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

good morning papples.
hm.was cleaning up last night.as usual,i did it myself when everyone was asleep,with all the lights on.i hate being alone ok.i hate the dark.im scared.ok.cleaned all.was done and breathless by 4.showered and slept.im happy with the work ive done.got up at 6 cause the lights were on,went downstairs and nat was eating.i was like look!!look at what ive done.and know what she said?"clean for what"..wah!i tell u.people clean until nak pengsan and she says that.thank uh aunty butch.

gonna book the pit later.with hana.
i still haven seen aida.believe it?alamak.i dah nak mati belum see my sayang all.
hm.no girlfriends whose boyfriends are invited are allowed to come.haha
hana is having tuition now.i still dont know why.
i have to wait for the curtain man n the carpenter to come.
where's my sister?sister..
beckys phone has been taken away.
i want drinksss.
i wanna go town

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

I was standing in a field,an empty field.
I came across a particular spot.
I started to dig and stand in the hole.
Gradually over time,i dug deeper and deeper.
After awhile,i realised that i was in too deep to get out.
I called out for help,but all anyone could do was to stand high above me and give advice;which did no good.
I was in too deep that there was no escape.
It affected me emotionally.
Now i'm out of the hole.
I've gone back,filled it up,hammered down wood with nails.
So as to not let anyone fall in;like i did.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

weeee!my party is coming up im so happy!

14 people.keeping it small.
hmmm.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

hello!
saw clara tan.
had fun.
becky,tasha,meli,debbie bought stuff.
i didnt.
im home.
my sister is annoyed at me for no reason.
she is on the phone.
i wanna talk to aida.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Monday, December 06, 2004

i was just let in on the harshness of reality.
i was deceived,
it hurts.
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to say
it hurts.
the most painful part is.....
you

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

congrads to fadila n baby!

fadila was just beautiful.faddli was angry with me as i suspected but he cooled cause i manja with him.i miss all of them.did alot of talking and connecting.they said my hair looked good.aunty lala said it looked like julia roberts and shahan said it was like janet jackson.they hardly see me with my hair down cause usually its so hot n i tie it up or when i sleep over i tie it up.its hot what.

today was just eating briyani day for me.ate so much.felt so good.still feeling hungry.i miss their cooking.the food was superb.i want somemore.fadila gave me flowers.i was so happy.i love flowers.hm.never received any if you know what i mean.

am tired.the travelling bit was alright cause we were in a cab back n fro.im cold.
u asked me a question i replied.i asked u the same question and u replied the same as me.
becksky,u think i dont think about everything everyday?i do.since the begining.i went wrong i know.i wanna say sorry.but it'll be like what for.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Sunday, December 05, 2004

it just hit me-it's december!hm.something is happening on saturday.anyone wanna guess what it is?

comeon lets ask the question of the day.what did i do today?
lets see.first i fell asleep at around 4,got up at i think 11.finally decided to wash my fish tank.oh and now,ive got 8guppies left alongside with 1sucker and 2 terrapins,the fish went down from 22 guppies,2unnamed fish.im upset.im utterly particular with the way i wash it.so im happy now.

as u can tell,i did not go for mass today.surprising?i think not.i cut mr gremps hair!its very short and i like it.oh man.if i am mr gremps,id never trust ME eith scissors and hair.

i've gotta go down to yishun for wedding.now only we going what.cause mum was at work.baju kurung,here i come.damn..im extremely lazy to dress up and all.then gonna meet aida and hana.-i think,i hope so.

nat and i are arguing over what baju kurung we're gonna use.damn.i think im like gonna go town in bk.hell no!

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

AIDA IS BACK

that brodder bo didnt want to tell us.shy uh darling that we will come with banners and all to the airport?n the best part of all is that i spoke to u last night n u lied straight to me.nvm.its ok.i love u.

oh man i was so thrilled when bo called me.id just finished lunch at pizza hut bedok.talked to her all the way to ang mo kio.my sister and i both got mani n pedis done.fun!!i love it.im so going back.i love my nails and the colour.do it again please?

i miss brodder bo!im so going to invade ur home along with hana n kim.we soo dont care!hey!when is our sleepover?i wanna scratch more people.then we can do the facials,the nails,the last night bindging and all!ice cream with chips?comeon girls!haha.can walk around in bra n pj bottoms with face mask on and flirt with the macdonalds delivery guy and forget to pay.

i miss it.gid come home fast!
i love u aida

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Saturday, December 04, 2004

i wanna scream..
*scream**scream**scream**scream**scream**scream**scream**scream**scream*
hmmmmmmm
oh wells.i cant do anything.cheetan!i hate it!

hm yesterday.i was practically doing nothing n was lazing around at home the whole day.then at 7 i got a call.frm who?frm my lovely keshia!she asked me to go down n meet her at town.so..i jumped out of bed,hit the shower got dressed and ran down!haha.met her at monstercue.her friend cornelius came down.apparently he was frm st pats but he sure did not look like or act like a patrician.thank ga!patricians have been stereo-typed and classified in my yellow pages.

played pool abit.made a fool of myself yet again.i cant aim so shutup*rolls eyes*haha.then finip liao so went to old chang kee.i got fishballs.cornelius paid for me.what a sweet fella.and yet again so not patrician like of him.thanks.walked down to paragon watched like 10secs of a band playing then went away.i was craving for choccobits.so we went to rockys.got my drink n left.hm.cine.i miss that place already.although when i am there it can get freaking boring.*rolls eyes**screams*clara!!!!!*dies*

met up with jerald.man its been a long time.he looks freaking old now.waitied for collin.oh collin.funny bastard.he cracks me up.took train with collin,keshia,some guy and star.i miss janeee!hm.star was messaging.hmmm.haha!

i had fun.thanks keshia.hm.got home at 11.
i miss hana.i miss kim.i miss aida
oh talking bout aida,she was supposed to come back today but NO.she will be back in a few days.
i miss the stooooperstars.i miss the teteks.i miss GID.oh god i miss gid.collin reminds me so much of gid.
oh ya i saw ira and friends at somerset.
i miss za.i miss faridah.i miss sahirah.i miss mishuelle.i miss xiao li.i miss clara tan.i miss clara kow.i miss LILING.
i miss becky.oh becky!i miss the cine people.i hope u n niq get better soon k becksky.awww man i miss you

i dont know where to hide my face.

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(:

Friday, December 03, 2004

my ga.whats up with this thang man?i cant like post n what happened to the rest of my blog?hello.i wanns change template.dunno yet.oh well

hm.yesterdae was fun.went out with natasha tan,becky,fatin,zarith.later on keshia.haha!had alot of fun with keshia n her friend collin.haha.we should do it again girl!hhaha.we were singing n taking nonsense!haha.was abit embarresed cause i was playing pool.ya ok shuddup i know i cant play.and especially in what i was wearing.so enough.thank u.haha.everyone saw my flowerful panties.haha!it was pretty so ya.haha.

am fucking tired balls.haha!whats with the language i dont know.hm.my hp just made noise but im lasy to check it.oh and ya.i think im like gonna come down with something cause my throat is like a fight!i swear.and i sounded like a fight yesterday.nicole the bapok.eh please uh dont ah.hm.i wanna sleeeeeeeeeep

i love being bimbotic
i love myself(: